Reblogged this so much but omg
TRIGGER WARNING!!!
This blog is for my own private journey through my disease! I do not condone or encourage anyone to seek the unhealthy behaviors mentioned here! If you are concerned you may have an eating disorder or are thinking of seeking one I strongly advise you to speak to your doctor.
I was in recovery from ENDOS for five years. A few months after having my first child I had a huge trigger and relapsed. Now I'm just trying to make it to my pregnant weight before Ana comes after me full swing again.
im fucked up and that’s the tea sis ☕️
And in recovery it’s even more harsh bc your brain goes into instant combat with itself over how to feel.
friendly reminder: the way they treat(ed) you is not a reflection of your worth
For my doctors and family to say I had a problem. Now that I’m almost to my goal, of course everyone is concerned. What gets me is where were all those concerned voices when I was 150lbs and cried every time I took a shower from seeing myself. Or maybe 140lbs when I’d work out till I passed out. Or at 130 when I went to them and told them I needed help and they said “I don’t think you’re bad enough off for help”…… I’m glad I have any support at all but where the fuck were they when it mattered?! Why the fuck wouldn’t they listen BEFORE Ana had all of my power? And why do they seem to think it should be easy now….. it’s never going to be easy for me to “Just eat” and those two words tog ether honestly just piss me off these days I hear them so much. Sorry to vent/rant everyone but I cannot stand this…
reblog if you are any of the following:
-active (july 2018)
-post thinspo
-have an ed
-have a sw over 130
-need to lose 20+
this is my sideblog, but will follow back with my main💘
feel free to message me for any reason💘
Let’s be clear:
We, anorexic people, don’t hate or judge fat people. The only fat person that we have a problem with is ourselves. So please, stop it.
Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696
Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433
LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255
Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386
Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743
Eating Disorders Hotline: 1-847-831-3438
Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673
Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272
Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000
Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253
If you ever want to talk: My tumblr ask is always open.
This phrase is probably my biggest motivation why I keep going
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I was being forced into treatment bc of how low my bmi has dropped
I feel hipbones in bed
I have only a slight little belly instead of a big one
My butt is doing a nice little lift instead of just being a blob
I have a long way to go
But im seeing the difference